January 2018アーカイブ

Wearing Holland (a song of Holland)

I think I was showing some closeness with my paintings. The distance is replaced to colors and the colors became a manner in the paintings. The closeness made me feel as if I am selfless servicing for paints.

The distance that I said is not the one between me and some exterior matters somewhere around me. The exterior distance is just between me and the canvas. But when I find "the distance"(an another distance between me and some inner matter), it is a discovery.  The discovery comes at the end, and it becomes the title of the painting.  And the work is finished.  This way of working I feel like I am selfless servicing for paints. 

After I moved to Holland, that was difficult ti work. Most of the couse "culture-shock" I could say. I leaned to live in a different language, a different manner and a different way of thinking (logic). That makes a different choice (answer). Answers was always two and beating each other. Hard to make one single choice. The time goes on. That was my regular condition in Holland.

During this difficult term, I was sometimes thinking about "wearing". I felt something when I withdraw some items from the cabinet. When I grab something at the showcase-window. That is not about fashion but an improvisational contact to the world. I felt that it happens in the dark.  

It is difficult to find the distance between me and the improvisational contact. If the items that you are wearing, the items you take off is too far, the items you are wearing is too close. 

After 11 years life in Holland I moved back to Japan. I loved to live in Holland but I had no time to miss Holland after I moved back to Japan But in winter. When the air becomes colder and colder, and/or the rainy days continues and continues, I feel as if I am wearing the air of Holland. Even it is invisible, I was wearing Holland. ( In Japanese I can use a same phrase for meaning "acquire", "learn" and "wear", Mi-ni- Tsukeru, putting something on your body.) 

I doubted me if I am thinking like a naked king (an invisible dress). But it is not from anyone, I just have it. It's my cloth, no, it's my song. 

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tropical or winter


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